interests

I don't know what I like anymore. I've come to realize that some things might not be meant for me. Maybe for others, but when it comes to me maybe it is just like that. It is not meant for me and I am not meant for it either. I keep failing midway in a lot that I have started (now abandoned) and then I just doubt myself; was I really interested to do it, or am I just mirroring people I watch and around me do it.

Tbh, I won't be surprised if that is the actual thing. I grew up, being motivated to achieve things and do things in life after seeing others do it. Like when I saw my sister take her big examinations and doing well with it; it motivated me and made me feel 'if she can do it, I can too' and not in the case where I want to beat her, I just wanted to achieve greatness for myself as well and since I was bound to face those examinations too. Heck I borrow other people's drive and will, even as simple as doing a free fall at District 21, IOI Putrajaya. I saw others do it and it made me want to try it too.

So what do I have originally then? Standing alone, on my own feet; am I unique? Do I have that determination and will, without having to be influenced by others?

And now here I am, doubting what I really want and like. What am I?