i suck

i really do. and it sucks that i know that i suck. and that i do things purposely which makes me suck even more. i'm childish, and everytime i do something out of spite, i remind myself to stop doing so; but ends up doing it again in the moment.

hence this entry. i need to say it out to the universe, that i want to suck less, and be more mindful. be more adult. be more my age. be more decent. be more alive instead of wanting to set the world on fire. stop being so petty and childish.

oh yeah a thought came to me just now. why is being a dick equals to being annoying/jerk? are dicks annoying? this question is for those of you out there who has one.

that's all i have for now

ttyl